Is it some kind of non-girlie penance???

For some reason (who knows why) I have become super girlie since Meli's arrival.  Before she was born, I was like "no pink" but then as her arrival inched closer and closer pink items trickled in (that I purchased) and then she shows up and it was an explosion of pink...and bows...and ribbon...and even taffeta or whatever it is called.  What the hell happened?!?  Now, this still only pertains to Mae.  I am not walking around in bows and whatever else, but over the years I have fancied dresses and skirts more - but I feel that I still put a little Christina's tomboyish flair to it. 

A little history: Growing up I was a major tomboy.  My room was sports...well and the pink bunnies my poor mama attempted to decorate my room with until I had a meltdown and got my football decor.  Poor mom - I really am sorry.  I played sports, my friends were mostly all guys with a few exceptions (until the end of grade school).  My dream was to be the first female football player for the Dallas Cowboys. Obviously, that did not happen.  Slowly, girlie things crept in but it was never a full turnaround.  In my early 20's I even got called "butch" by a homosexual friend.  He told me this in a bar as I was drinking a Guinness from the bottle with my legs spread out relaxing like one of the guys.  I think that was my wake up call to make my way over to the other side...at least a little more. I have put forth an effort. I do love jewelry, clothes, dresses, shoes, even purses now but it still manages to be different somehow.  Maybe it is more my attitude and mannerisms.  I love wine but I will not give up the dark beer!!

Poor Mae though.  Will laughs at me when I put these huge bows on her but I think they are super cute. He even asked me what happened to me when we were at this store that was all about bows.  He turned to me and was like, "I do not even know who you are right now". I also love the pink and purple outfits for babies...now this is for babies - when I walk to the older girl section I hate all of the pink and all of the hearts (I hate hearts with a passion - I even hate Valentine's Day because of the hearts and the combination of pink and red - horrible).  So, I know that this will just be a phase that I go through with my little baby girl.  BUT what if she does turn out super girlie and wants all that stuff?!?!  When I walk down the girl toy aisle I freak. I can feel the tension starting.  I did not play with those things and am at a complete loss. 

This is going to be fun...